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01:32 am
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It's 4am and I'm alone
Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you? ...
I fly out to LA on the 27th, rehearsal on the 28th, and the first show is on the 29th. There's 11 days until I leave and I'm nervous typing this. I'm psyched to be back on the road for two months, but there's always that pit in the bottom of my stomach that makes me worried right before it all begins. I'm going back to my second home, and I should be happy.
Wanna help me out .. add this myspace: www.myspace.com/warpednonprofit ;) I'll love you!
>> maybe another story before I leave? .. a short one? who knows.
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11:44 pm
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I lost.
THE CONTINUATION OF - TAKING IT ALL BACK (you can't put groupie on your resume: a tour diary COMING SOON TO MY LIVE JOURNAL, SEN.)
Is it still losing if you forfeit? Are you still considered to be defeated if you give up? ..
Today I gave up. I gave up trying for something that's unattainable. You can get what you want if you try hard enough is bull shit. Some things will never happen, and I accept that .. or do I?
I need something to distract me. Another obstacle I can win the contest for, or at least make a failed attempt at. But fuck it! That game is old for me, I could play it in my sleep. Shortly I'll begin a contest of my own .. who wants to play?
Current Mood:  worried
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08:02 pm
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"I can't even look at you without crying"
"Light my dear is the thing in your smile, your face, your eyes, and your being that makes you a magnet for pain and love equally, and the chance at the ultimate in relationships -- [a] soulmate being found. You draw others to you, for them to be able to see, but be very wise in this, not everyone is as strong as you are and with that --- they run."
It's hard for me to sit here and read that statement because it's an easy way out for me. To sit here and think that any of the "relationships" / "hook ups" / whatever in my life failed because they weren't as strong as I was is an easy way out. I would love to think that I'm destined for some beautiful relationship in the future because unknowingly I open myself up to heart break. That would be amazing, but let's see some results here ..
Why do people come into / and out of your life? I tell myself it's for a greater purpose, so you can learn as much from them as they have to offer. In the end if they're not meant to be in your life, they find the exit. The most painful part of that for me is when I know I have more to learn, and life gets in the way. Feelings and sexual attraction aside, have you ever felt so connected to a person .. like you've known them your whole life? Perhaps in a past life, or for the non-believers, it's just a coincidence that you've had a lot of the same experiences in this life. I have, and it kills me when I stop to think about why that person isn't here. Why did certain things happen in life that forced me to live in New Hampshire, and others to live where they live? Why do certain paths cross in life, at those perspected times? For instance the most recent example of life paths would be the Saints and Sinners tour. I was interviewed to go out on a tour as a TM /merch person from October 9th - October 29th. The band ended up getting robbed, found a friend to be their TM, and I didn't get the job. The Saints and Sinners tour was supposed to launch at the beginning of October, it got delayed. Somehow I found the tour, applied, and got the job a WEEK before it took off. If all of the things hadn't fallen into place, I wouldn't have done the Saints and Sinners tour, I wouldn't have met amazing people (who I consider to be my brothers), and I wouldn't have learned the lessons I was supposed to. I DO believe everything happens for a reason, strongly. Even if I stopped talking to everyone who was on that tour tomorrow, I would remember them always. I know that I will stay in touch with some, and others will fade off .. but that's how it's supposed to be. All of our paths will cross again in the future, because I know I have a lot more to learn from them.
Why am I thinking about this now? The answer is Joe. He fucked me up more than anybody knows. I'm not mature enough, or even ready to get married, or settle down .. but religion aside, I would have gladly spent my life with him at the right time. I guess I never got a chance to fully vent over breaking up with him. It wasn't even a normal break up - it was a, "I'll see you in 10 days, I love you so much .. by the way I can't be with you, I'm changing my number, I need to dedicate my life to Jehova" type of break up. All of a sudden .. one morning, OUT OF NO WHERE. Imagine waking up to that message, while you're surrounded by 17 people in a tour bus, with no where to go and cry? I didn't have ANYONE to talk to, I had to work, and there was no time to be sad. I remember breaking down in the back of the tour bus the day it happened, and as soon as I stopped crying the Plain White T's sang, "I started out alone, and in the end that's where I'll be". Honestly, it made me smile, for one second.
So I guess 5 months later this is me being sad, lonely, and emotional, for all the times I couldn't be. Everyone always has someone to "go home to" .. and for me, he was that person. I've got family, and friends ..but they can't fill that void. Even more so is my best friend Nickole's situation with her on again / off again "guy". She's going through all of the things I WISH I did. There is no time for me to be sad now, esp. since I need to be there for her.
I told somebody that I'm not really afraid of being alone, I'm afraid of being forgotten. To me, that's worse. I hope that in 20 years from now certain people I've connected with will see something that reminds them of me and smile. That is my goal.
Hmm .. this entry is all over the place, kind of like me. I start work tomorrow, and will get into my depressed mode I'm sure. I start pre-tour work for TA! on the 15th, woooooo. I'll be heading back out on the road on the 30/31st of Jan, wish me luck. I'm really due for a life talk with my main life supporter.
=) till next time.
Current Mood: drained
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07:24 pm
[Link] | I'm sitting at the Best Western hotel in South Bend, Indiana waiting for the 8 o'clock meeting to arrive. The CC tour has been a horrible and amazing experience all wrapped in one. I'm a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason," and I'm sure the reason for me being on this tour is to make me stronger. I am very thankful this summer that I had amazing people surrounding me, and that I was pushed to do a job I love, and later praised for it. Every day on this tour (for a while now) I've woken up to get bitched at, or looked down upon, and extremely underestimated at all times, that sucks. It really crushes your spirit when you work your ass off, and people who aren't even on the tour come in for a couple of days and don't see you at your best. Every day we have meetings with "this is what we're going to do to save the tour," discussions, and nothing gets implimented. We're in survival mode now, and all of the workers on this tour have taken the brunt of it. This tour is EXTREMELY unorganized, and should have never began. Granted every tour will have problems, but this tour IS the problem. I can't list the number of problems that continue to occur because of bad planning, and execution. It isn't my fault that I can't save a 1/2 mill tour when it's too late.
I realize this isn't a "normal" job and there are certain things I have to work around .. like sickness. It's also another thing when I'm standing outside for 7 hours in the cold trying to beg people to give me their email addy's when I can't construct a sentence w/out my voice going out. EVERYONE is sick, and there's no escaping it. I hope that the bill for my bronchitis is in the budget, because they'll be getting it. Its also shitty when the million bosses I have all tell me to play a different role. "Be the pretty face at the door" - cut your t-shirts, and smile .. "Its all about the numbers" - blah, blah, blah. YES I am a girl, YES I can do the same things the boys do, don't fucking treat me differently. I hate not being able to prove myself, and when I get the chance it's at something menial.
I'm thankful that I've met some amazing people on this tour, and have had amazing conversations with them. I'm at the point where I don't really give a shit about anything. I would much rather be on the road working (even in this situation), but the lies, changes in plans, and overall bull shit draining me. At least the band, and the other crew see that I have potential and support me .. I'll be seeing them down the road.
There is one particular person on this tour who I've become extremely comfortable with, probably because I can relate to a lot of what he's been through. In certain ways he reminds me of my brother, and that scares me. It makes it worse because he's in the band, and when we spend time together everyone jokes around about it -- they'll always ask me where he is, or come to my room first because they think they'll find him here (and most of the time they do). I really enjoy talking with him and spending time with him .. it's going to be sad to leave him, and the rest of the band in a couple of days. Imagine spending 24/7 with someone on a tour, with extreme conditions (stress, weather, sickness, drama), it makes everyone close very fast, and in the end you all go back to your normal lives. It sucks, and I can't say I'm looking forward to it. In a different place, time, or life things would be different, and knowing that sucks. I am just glad to meet so many amazing people that come into my life, and who will hopefully stay there.
Currently that is where I stand. Sick, fed up, but still making the best out of a shitty situation by surrounding myself with amazing people. I will be spending Thanksgiving with my new tour family (or at least some of them) in Buffalo this year, I hope to make it memorable.
------------ IN OTHER NEWS:
I got offered to interview for a position on another tour (that takes off in Feb and goes till the end of March). It's a tour I've wanted to get on, but the position does come with sacrafices. If they want me, I'm not sure if I would / should do it .. although every part of me wants to take the job to show them what I can do. It's finally a position of power, and something I think I would excel at. I will keep you posted with what's happening, and if I actually got the job.
<3 <3 <3
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11:50 pm
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WOW!
You're just like the rest of them .. these are things I wish I never found out.
Now in my mind I know there are paths that are BETTER left uncrossed .. yet, why do I always seem so tempted to cross them?
This is a situation that has occured in the past (different people / time), yet there's an 80% chance the outcome will be lose/lose.
Hmm. things to ponder. dig myself in a deeper hole? or get out while I still can?
Most of the time I choose the hole - why? not sure .. maybe I like the drama?
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02:38 am
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alone?
Good news kiddies. Heather and I are packing our bags and heading back out on the road (bout' time huh?) This time with a College promo tour that incorporates both promotion, and music touring. It shall be a fun time.
On that note, I'm missing quite a few important dates while I'm gone. The tour is from October 24th - December 7th (although we leave 22nd). So, Heather's 21st Birthday will be spent on the road, I am missing Cassie's 22nd birthday, as well as Halloween, and Thanksgiving. But hey, I chose this life.
I feel torn between two different worlds at all times. One that exists to everyone I know that includes having a 40 hour a week job, a house, and in the not too distant future a marriage, and family. And my disposible life that includes no "real" job, having no connection to anything; a disposible lifestyle. One that can be picked up and thrown anywhere at any point in time with no remorse for holidays, birthdays, and the like. At times it makes me feel disconnected from my friends who all go on with out me when I'm gone, like nothing has changed. I guess it would be greedy of me to think they would change around my schedule, but it makes me sad thinking about them enjoying the normal Friday night out - when I'm working a show, or in some state in a different time zone.
You know what I say to that? FUCK THAT! I don't want to live in the same place, wake up at the same time everyday, to go into a job that I hate, and live for the weekends where I'll get drunk at a bar, hoping to meet a guy who will like me for more than just a "good time". Just thinking about that makes me glad that I have the opportunity to get out of New Hampshire at various times, to make a living, and further my career. I can always come home to my friends, and that's enough comfort in itself.
Thankfully Heather is my companion in the music business for life. We're both certain that we'll be old maids in the nursing home, telling all the other elders our best touring stories. Even then we won't be alone, because we'll be with our other touring friends who chose this lifestyle as well. Steve, we'll see you there.
So, with that said .. can't wait till I leave for tour - to be lonely with Heather, and love every minute of it.
<3
Current Location: home.
Current Mood:  anxious
Current Music: Papercuts - Gym Class Heroes
Tags: tour
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11:43 pm
[Link] | thanks ashley.
1. Something that you recently changed: my skin (with tattoos)
2. Never in my life have I sucked: at swimming
3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile: my brother
4. In High School I was: an assortment of things (the trouble maker, the mysterious girl, the "shy" one, the problem solver, the loud mouth)
5. When I'm nervous: I feel sick, and talk a lot
6. The last time I cried was: last week
7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: I've never even been to a wedding .. or plan on ever getting married - but bridesmaids would be Heather, Nickole, & Jess, Groomsmen .. who ever.
8. Wine of choice: none.
9. My hair is: bleach blonde, with brown underneath .. sometimes curly, sometimes straight
10. When I was 4: I got what ever I wanted
11. Last Christmas: was one of the better
12. Last soda you drank: root beer
13. I should be: sleeping
14. When I Look Down: I see my computer, and phone on the floor
15. The craziest recent event was: show, RDPete!, craig - in that oder, until clocking in at 4am with Heather
16. If I were a character on Friends I'd be: Monica
17. By this time next year: I won't be home (fingers crossed)
18. I often dream of: what would be different in my life if I had made certin choices (go to school in chicago, moved to florida, etc.)
19. I have a hard time understanding: why certain religions hate certain types of people
20. One time at a family gathering: We invited everyone who isn't in our family .. because we're so small
21. You know I like you: If I start texting you / calling you / talking about you all the time.
22. If I won an award, the first person (people) I'd tell would be: My gramp & nan (wouldn't have to tell heather she'd prob. be there with me)
23. Take my advice: you don't want in this business
24. My ideal breakfast is: Orange juice, waffles w/ strawberries & whipped cream, and home fries MMMMMMMMMMM!
25. If you visited the place I grew up: You'd be in Londonderry/Derry, NH
26. Where do you plan to visit soon: New York? Floriday? Lots of other interesting places?
27. If you spend the night at my house you better: bring your own pillow, and blankets (HAHAHA)
28. Journey or Styx: JOURNEY
29. The world could not do without: MYSPACE
30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than date: founder of the DStar
31. Most recent thing you've bought yourself: shoes
32. Most recent thing someone else bought for you: lunch
33. One thing that you could not live without: GUMMMMM
34. My favorite color is: green
35. Last radio station you listened to: I hate the radio
36. Last underwear purchased: probably horrible ones on Warped
37. The animal I would like to see flying besides birds are: kitties .. what an interesting time that would be :)
38. I shouldn't have: done a lot of things
39. Once, at a bar: Bordwalk Billy's in North Carolina is all I'm saying.
40. Last night I: went online, took a shower, texted, went to bed
41. There's this girl I know who: is from Oregon, and is coming to Boston *hollerr.
42. How do you feel about toilet paper: I am excited I don't have to put it into a trash can instead of flushing!
43. A better name for me would be: LAquanda
44. If I ever go back to school I will: shoot myself and yell rape because college raped me of my money!
45. How many days until my birthday?: 4 months
46. What I really want for my birthday is: calls from all my friends <3
47. I'm wearing: pj pants, white tank top
48. Tomorrow I am: going to work & going to Worcester to see Zach & Dylan on tour!
49. My friends are: amazing.
50. I really wish for: luck tomorrow
Current Location: my rUm
Current Mood:  content
Current Music: The Sleeping - Stayin' Alive
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10:37 pm
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feel with intensity
Went to a show the other night. It made me sad to see that the ONLYYYY girls present backstage / onstage were the girlfriends of the band. WHAT? All of the bands were comprised of guys, all of the workers at the venue were guys (minus ONE merch girl from the venue), and everyone involved in their entorage were guys.
I think this is pathetic. Yes, it's only one example of a tour, but still! There needs to be more girls involved in every aspect of touring / working in the music business minus the "record label, cubicle working, ladies" that are always around. It's horrible and makes it that much harder for me and heath to get in the business (bc we're looked upon as groupies / gf's) instead of workers. PSHHH to this.
But FUCK IT. I'm working the Warped Tour this summer and Heather's working on Camplified again. So fuck all of the guys who think they can do it better, hah.
>> WARPED LIFE <<
Everyone hit me up at any Warped date. But if you do .. PLEASE bring me baby wipes, I will love you foreverrr and ever, honestly. Also if you come hang out at the Take Action! tent with me expect to get sweet prizes from ERNIE BALL, HEARTCORE CLOTHING, VICTORY RECORDS (* and more). ALSO! play GIANT TWISTER with fellow fans (and possible band members) and win some of those prizes too. It'll be a good time all around, and this will be my WARPED DIARY so keep in touch && keep checking in. I leave on June 13th.
_______ ALSO:
It makes me laugh when fans try to out do other fans at concerts. I was like that when I was 15/16 or so, so I can understand it. It just amuses me when people my age (who I've known for a while) still pull that. Ok, can you see I'm NOT in competition with you? I wish I could tell 1/2 of the shit that I've witnesses take place in the music business / has happened to me with all of these bands that girls follow around and "love to death" because they're "life". Actually, if you're reading this and you're wondering about what could have possibly happened to me, and who the bands were .. you'll be pleased to know myself, and co-worker / biffle heather will be releasing an un-edited rough copy of the book we're releasing titled, "You Can't Put Goupie On Your Resume: A Tour Diary" sometime before 06' is over. Of course this is just a rough version, and will be built upon as we gain more tour work / shows, etc. It will include:
- some bands you KNOW and some you might not
- stories about my friends & hook-ups that have happened (NOT ME)
- entertaining situations backstage & behind the scenes
- a look inside tour busses & life on the road
- the road to getting ON the road (and overcoming the groupie / gf stereotype)
- adventures in hot vibes (www.hotvibes.com)
- advice on entering the touring / music business field
- and alll that good stuff
Most likely the edited copies will only be for your enjoyment and to get feedback (not about typos, but about content). Price will probably be shipping & handling, cost to produce, and maybe a little more. So yes, cheap, and a good / fun read and insight to the music business from two young ladies.
AWESOME. LOVE IT. the end.
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11:20 pm
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I can't believe a year went by so fast?
A wise man once told me "the more things change, the more they stay the same" .. ok, it wasn't a wise man, it was actually Joey McIntyre of NKOTB fame, but none the less I learned those words are so true.
Today I turned 21. While I was on my way to a bar with my friends a STAIND song came on the radio. My friends turned it up loud, and the melody of it gave me a flashback to the time me, heather, catherine, and some band members were all on a tour bus, and busted out in an 'Africa' sing along. I just started to smile at that memory, because it was truly a moment that should have been on TV, or in a movie.
Any how, I get to the bar and a cover band is playing. I'm not really into cover bands, but it's music .. and well that is my life. Before the night was over I ended up talking to the singer while all of my friends enjoyed their ciggs, and alcohol. I found it really funny that out of all the people in the bar I would pick the BAND to chat with. No matter where I go, or what I do, I'm always brought back to music. It draws me in, and I don't want it any other way.
I just think it's funny that no matter what changes in my life, music is the constant thing I can count on.
With that said .. THANK YOU to anyone and everyone who wished me a happy birthday: heather, catherine, ashley, nickole, jess, tess, and her god damn mom, cassie, james, sarah, laura, melissa, danielle, and everyone who did it through myspace <3 <3 i love you all! thank-you for making this the best birthday everrr.
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05:37 pm
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you're better off alone anyway.
[andria's pre-blog comments: Being a girl trying to get into the music business, is like being an unmarried bridesmade, time and time again, for all of your seven married sisters. You're always there, alone, and everyone's wondering what you're doing with your life, and when you're going to "settle down." They don't understand you want something more, something that makes you happy.
You'll try the best you can to prove to all of the guys in the business that you're worth something, you're talented, and for most part you can do their job better. Sometimes the guys will try to take advantage of you, some of them will try to be your friends, but in the end all you're really looked at like is another fan, or groupie. No matter how hard you try to get away from that whole stereotype, no matter how professional you act, there will always be those people asking you "who you've got with," like it's part of your resume or something.
Now maybe there's times that you'll cross lines that should never be crossed, but if the music business is your life, its bound to happen. For any other young woman working a 9-5, having a social life, it's completely acceptable to hang out with guys, have a good time, without getting a stereotype. I don't understand why when it comes to certain situations people assume things.
Now you maybe confused with this entry, but it does have a purpose, I promise. It's more of an outlet to let me vent about some of the recent things that have been happening in my life. Only a couple people are privy to the stories, which is why I'm writing it down. I want people to read it and learn not to judge me, my friends, or what I want to do with my life. It's tough sometimes, but I'm learning to live with it.
What doesn't break you, makes you stronger. <3]
With that said. Went to see the band Pray for The Soul of Better last night (w/ Constantine from American Idol & RENT), and I turned into a 10 year old girl. I have to admit that he is gorgeous, and even though his music is ok, and his voice is just ok, his stage presence makes everyone fall completely in love with him. I fell for it. I enjoyed seeing BCR open for a different type of crowd (and when I say 'different' I really mean 40-50 year old women). They rocked it. When PFTSOB went on we got to watch from a platform on the side of the stage, courtesty of "uncle billy". I really wanted to meet Connie, so we waited and ended up going to the end of the singing line, met them & ended up going on the tour bus for a few later on in the night.
All in all it was a spectacularly fun night, I love my girls, and our random shows. Pictures to come soon & to be posted on my myspace - www.myspace.com/backstagepass!
<3 <3 <3
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05:10 pm
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the quiet things that no one ever knows <3
[if you're interested in how the weekend shows went head over to my myspace for a pic review entry www.myspace.com/backstagepass] --------
Why is it that people only feel bad about what they've done when they get caught?
Why are people never happy with what they have, and they always want something better?
If you honestly trust someone, why do you doubt them?
Why is it that a song, the whole thing, or even one line, can sum up a situation so perfectly despite it being totally unrelated to you, or your life?
If you only live once, why do you chose to live life so sheltered, uptight, and scared of the unknown?
Why is the saying, "out of sight, out of mind" so true?
Why do people in general care what others think?
... So I've been thinking about the following questions a lot lately. I guess being unsure of myself, what I stand for, who I love, who I don't, who i'm friends with, and what people think of me has gotten the best of me. Lately I've been so wrapped up in what others think, that I've compromised myself, mostly for the worse. At some point in the last two weeks I made the decision to cross a line that should never be crossed. Am I ashamed of it? No. Am I dissapointed in myself? Yes. Everything you do, and say, to anyone at any time has some effect on you, and vice versa, whether in a negative or positive way.
I would just like to say, lesson learned. Lines are lines for reasons, if you cross them you will get hurt.
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10:04 am
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it's a [wonderful crazy] video shoot >>
one week late, but better late than never right?
anywho here's the review from this past weekend .. it's a long one, but very interesting to say the least! ------------------
On Saturday we left at 7am to drive to NYC for our friend Katelyn Tarver's video shoot for 'Wonderful Crazy'. We got into NYC fine, but as we were getting off our exit Heather's car died! We thought it was the battery, but the cop said it wasn't. We tried the car again, but it just died. We had to leave it on the side of the road while we walked to a garage. We finally found it, and they towed the car back to the garage. They said we would have to wait till Monday to find out what was wrong with it because they were closing, and wouldn't be open again until them -- awesome. Also, Saab parts are hard to come by so they might have to order one.
Having no car, and someplace to go we took all of our luggage and got a cab to the video shoot. Before we got the cab we walked a couple blocks in the rain until one finally was open, it sucked.
Once we arrived at Budman Studios it was fun hanging around w/ Katelyn and Mama Tarver. I haven't seen them since the Camplified tour, so it was awesome re-uniting again. We watched the shoot, and hung around until it wrapped for the day. After we went to dinner w/ katelyn, drew, mama tarver, and management. We went out for some after dinner coffee and got to meet Leven, Drew's gf, she's nice. I didn't know this at the time, but she's on All My Children (she plays Lilly), which is cool.
After the night ended we were going to catch Katie's show .. but considering everything that happened, and the fact we had no car, we decided it wasn't worth it. We hopped onto the Fung Wah bus to Boston, got in at 1:30am and home to my house at 3:30am on Sunday morning, ughh.
** update: Heather's car is fixed & we're getting it next week, it's going to be $175 total. It was the gas regulator and the spark plugs on the car, BOO! Tomorrow starts a weekend long event -- The Click Five / October Fall in RI & CTx2, then hopefully on Monday the band Pagoda w/ Michael Pitt & OC's Ryan Donowho. OW-OW!
for pics go to my myspace:
www.myspace.com/backstagepass
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12:19 pm
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x. groupies x.
group·ie
- A fan, especially a young woman, who follows a rock group around on tours.
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I hear that word tossed around a lot at shows, and when people who don't know me describe me. Since the definition in the dictionary is different than what society considers a "groupie" I'm quite offended at it's use. A groupie to most is a girl who follows around a band[s] and makes any and all attempts to sleep with them, in order to feel closer to the star.
I would like to know - when did the term groupie start being used to describe females who work in the music business? I deal with touring, and ultimately want to spend the rest of my life as a tour manager for a band / artist on the road. Just because I am female, that DOES NOT make me a groupie.
I'm 20 years old, and trying to break into the touring business .. thus resulting in certain people using the term 'groupie' to describe me. This subject has come up a lot recently, and it's something I get offended over very easily.
No, I do not sleep with rock bands, or any other band for that matter. I don't want to, I want to work for them. Is it that hard to get through your head? No, I do not want to date them, or any other person involved in their career. I am strictly interested in the BUSINESS aspect of everything.
Yes, I like to go to shows outside of my state. Unless it's the Backstreet Boys, it's always for business, and rarely for fun. When I'm not in a professional situation I still remember that I have a rep to uphold, and never do anything that could damage it.
Yes, I have been to after parties with bands. Yes, I've been backstage with bands. Yes, I've partied with some. And yes, I've partied in hotels with others. Does this make me a groupie? HELL NO. I will never put myself into a situation where I'm uncomfortable, or would be considered a groupie, or taken less seriously. These invites are always on the 'friend' level, and are a good way to get to know people, you want to work for.
It really hurts when I hear comments like: "you don't look like press," or anything degrating like, "use what you've got to get ahead" .. more often than not those comments come from filthy industry guys, I HATE IT.
I've learned to deal with it, and if I have to prove to everyone that I'm more than just a young girl, or a groupie - it makes the victory that much sweeter when they finally realize I'm not fucking around.
With this said I hope to see you out on the road. I will be hitting up the Click Five / October Fall / Big City Rock shows in Providence, Hartford, and New Haven in a week -- doing work at all of them, so if you see me .. say hello!
<3 andria.
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04:45 pm
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it's a wonderful crazy >>
Ohhh, my first LJ entry. This is my new LJ for the new year. Just a place where I can talk about the music business, and what happens on my quest for a successful career. With that said, I'm going to check out Katelyn Tarver's music video shoot for 'Wonderful Crazy' on Saturday. It's going to be shot in NYC, looking forward to meeting up with Kim & Katelyn since we haven't seen them since August. It should be fun times, I will keep you updated.
till then.
Current Mood:  sleepy
Current Music: October Fall
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